I never got any of that

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           There was
Rose and The Doctor, always him and her. I can’t complain, I truly like them
both, however, when I met Rose I counted on something more. She was smart,
beautiful and in trouble- all the best things at once. Our first meeting, I
expected it to be much more…productive than it was, I still liked the adventure
though (Hypervodka being my last meal- this decision I still can’t quite
understand today). I thought she was a dream-like, until I met The Doctor.  I’m old my friends, very old, but through all
this time I come back to that day with a smile. Well, that was the first day I
met him, however not the first time he met me, I think. He was outstanding! I
liked his face especially, when it comes along with the leather jacket. That
was my Doctor, but not Rose’s. I’m not saying his next face was worse, oh no!
Just…this one was the one I wanted, truly wanted, to buy that gad dammed drink.
Truth was, he was hard to get, but definitely wort it, if he wasn’t in love
with Rose already, I mean, who wasn’t back then? His smile was… delicious, I
know, I’ve tried it once. He was the one I wanted to play childish human games
with but also conquer the universe, honestly speaking, everyone he meat does. 

               I really liked that Martha
girl- she was very special, more than she or him could imagine back then.
Sometimes I feel like she was more of the Doctor, than his next face was.
Still, it was him, who brings stars into people lives, and so he did with mine.

               I’m
gonna tell him his biggest mystery soon and it will destroy him. I know his future
now, he knows my past now.

               I’m
old, very old but it was a good life. Rose made me who I am but he made my
heart what it is. I loved him but he choose Rose, like he always did. It was a
good choice, she deserved him and he deserved her.

               I’m
wondering though, what the life could be, if I bought him that drink…

Identified as the doctor

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Rose Tyler and Tenth Doctor
One shot
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Warning: 

major character death 
After Doomsday, Rose fell into the Void. Or didn’t she?

YOU HUMANS WERE MOURNING AFTER DOOMSDAY BUT YOUR
HEARTS WEREN’T TRULY DESTROYED! EXTERMINATE THE HOPE OF THE HUMAN RACE! THE
DALEK EMPIRE HAS RISEN! ROSE TYLER FELL AND THE DOCTOR IS DEAD!


           He was the only one left in
Torchwood, the white room was quiet and empty. Doctor rest his head on the cold
wall in front of him, the Void was closed and this world was saved again. It
didn’t felt well, though, because he was there alone. Rose fell into the Void
with Daleks and Cybermen, which was worse than dying. At first he thought that
he wasn’t feeling anything, his mind was blank and his hearts felt empty, but
as the time flows even his soul began to broke. How could he?! She was back,
for him, she wanted to help and managed to do the best, but the lever went
loose. Rose, Defender of the Earth, brave girl, lovely friend and his best
companion. Human who saved him.

Now she
was gone because of him.

What a stupid alien bloke he was! The Doctor’s
anger began to grow- he threw her into deadly trouble (again) and naively thought
it’ll end up good (again). He was so stupid to be excited about all that
trouble…. Rose, his precious human girl, gone in the Void. He’s vision began to
blur- there was Pete’s world and she should be there, she would be at least
alive…

           So
he was back into the TARDIS, same old life, saving the worlds. Alone. Trying to
convince himself that he was better that way wasn’t easy, because he wasn’t, he
had become even less careful so each time he got in trouble it was worse than
before and seemed that another adventure had gone wrong, terribly wrong. He was
trapped on the Daleks ship, although it was better, he was alone- there was no-one
to stop him but there was also no-one to suffer consequences of his bad
choices. He was the only one responsible for his actions and that was the only
bright side of the situation. His actions have always been reckless somehow but
recently he was even more dangerous to himself, getting in worse trouble every
time- not that he wasn’t searching for them, that was another truth. Sometimes
he was scaring himself- it felt like the War Doctor was back or even worse than
that and he was wondering if he still has the right to call himself The Doctor.

           Really
scary thing was that he stopped caring about the consequences, although it
wasn’t like he would be able to commit genocide (again) but he definitely
stopped caring about himself. He was indifferent basically and this one tiny
part of his mind kept telling him that maybe he should do that long ago. After
battle of Canary Wharf something big and burning with every breath had grown in
his throat and stayed there, growing larger until it reached his hearts.

           The
bright side was that now he was still undetected but probably it wouldn’t least
as long as he would like it. There were some prisoners on the ship and he
almost got in there, using his sonic screwdriver to open the door and entering
the great hall. There were some people, at least not as many as he suspected-
Daleks were always responsible for mass killings. This time it looks like…
leftovers or like the only small beginning for the bigger plan. People were
sitting in the corners, wondering around a bit, all of them strangely calm and
kind of absent. He slowly moved around but no-one really noticed him, it wasn’t
like the perception filter was on , they were somehow oblivious of his
presence. And then he saw a familiar face in the corner. Standing in the
middle, he didn’t know what was going on and couldn’t believe what he was just
looking at. That was Rose. One part of his mind knew well that his former
companion fell into the Void and there was no escape from there but Daleks were
here and so was she, so maybe there was another way. If Daleks managed to escape
from the Void, apparently so did Rose. A spark of hope set fire in his hearts.
It was Rose, she was there and she was alive! He ran towards her, not wanting
to give himself much hope, but here she was, he couldn’t help it. But then he
stopped, mid step. It was Rose, but on the other hand he wasn’t sure. He knew
her so well, he could sense a difference and it wasn’t the girl he used to
travel with. Her eyes were… blank and she didn’t reacted at all when she saw
him. First, it hit him, he expected her to at least smile, but she looked like
she didn’t recognize him. It was obvious, that surviving from the Void had to
change her but not like that. Rose finally focused her sight on his face.

– What happened?- she asked, her voice quiet, somehow soundless but harsh. She
sounded like an old, destroyed piece of paper.

– Rose…?- it was more like a question, like a prayer to some distant god, a
prayer for her, to actually be HER.- What do you remember?- she tilted her head
a bit, silently asking something he couldn’t read.- Rose, do you remember me?

– Doooc-tooor?- she ask and The Doctor shuddered from the sound of her voice,
not really sure whether she spoke, or the Dalek.

– Yes, yes, that’s me. C’mon we have to run!- grabbing her hand, like he used
to, he tried to run away but she didn’t even twitch.

– Aaare you the Dooc-toor?- Rose spoke again, louder.

– Shhh, we’ll talk later, now we have to go, please!- she didn’t move, her hand
was cold, dead-like. She was staring blankly into the room, not looking at him
and then her head moved, slowly, machine-like.

– YOUU WERE IDENTIFIED AS THE DOOOC-TOOOR- this time, it was nothing like her
voice, just the unpleasant screech, which he knew too well and didn’t wanted to
hear it anymore.

– Oh Rose, my sweet human…- he whispered. A tube with a Dalek eye slowly moved
out of her forehead- they haven’t turned her fully to set a trap for him, of
course. He walked straight into it, now the new Dalek was awoken and there was
no way out.- I’m sorry… I’m so sorry…

-YOUU WERE IDENTIFIED AS THE DOCTOR. YOUUU WILL BE EXTERMINATED!- Rose was
already gone long ago and he was old, very old and tired. Why not? Why keep
fighting when there was no hope? He is losing everything, every time The Doctor
and the Daleks meet. He is killing them, over and over again but they still
survive, slowly killing him instead, from the inside. They took his planet from
him, his family, his friend and now they took Rose, It’s been too long…

– Well, maybe it’s high time to do that. I have been trying to defeat you for
years, for centuries and you always survive, while I am losing everything.
Maybe it’s time to finish it for good.

She killed him and he let her because they were both already long gone. The
Daleks won.

I just wrote something to show you, that Doomsday wasn’t THAT bad 😉