People who are disappointed by Steve’s reaction or (apparent) lack thereof after Bucky dissolved really don’t grasp Steve Rogers at all. This isn’t like fanfic. In fanfic, Steve sometimes, sort-of, semi works through his problems in a sometimes dubious but mostly healthy way.
Canon Steve doesn’t do that.
This is a man who buried his last living relative and was ready to refuse to live with Bucky because he didn’t want to appear weak.
This is a man who, after watching someone he loved literally slip through his hands and die, separated himself from the undoubtedly well-meaning Commandos, and Peggy (until she ultimately sought him out) and cried and attempted to get drunk in a bombed out bar because he was their leader and he couldn’t, wouldn’t let himself fall apart in front of the men that follow him into battle and trust him with their lives.
This is a man who has grown used to the weight of the world on his shoulders, and he now feels that weight more than ever. This situation with Thanos is so much more than any situation has ever been, in every way.
So he cannot be Steve Rogers. He cannot mourn for his best friend, he cannot scream at the top of his lungs, or pull his hair, or weep, or wail, or break. Despite how much he might want to. Despite how he feels. Because, whether the official title is his or not, whether he wants it or not, he needs to be a captain. He needs to be The Captain. With Stark gone, with his people – everyone he trusts and loves – gone… if you think for a second Steve Rogers is not going to beat back his anguish and pain immediately after suffering tremendous, soul-rending loss to do what needs to be done, you are dead wrong.
An alternative to being disappointed, is to really think about who Steve is. He is self-sacrificial to a fault; he swallows the knives of duty with a bitter smile until he all but chokes on them, keeps going even when blood runs down his chin and his throat is in shreds. Emotional, yes, he feels deeply, but only when it’s “safe” to; when he doesn’t have to be on, when he doesn’t have to be anything other than body, and mass, and fractured soul. Unfortunately he doesn’t feel safe that often. A soldier, yes, that’s who he was trained to be, but inherently, that’s just who Steve is.
His soft “oh g-d” at the end – about Bucky, about Sam and T’Challa and everyone – was as much emotion and devastation and fear as Steve Rogers was going to let himself show. Just a second, just a moment. And then… Then he’s going to get up, he’s going to throw his shoulders back, and he’s going to go back to work.
It’s been five years and I still don’t know why people don’t think Bucky was such a vintage!geek in the 1940s
Knows by heart how many women there are in New York and casually throws that in a conversation he has when he’s on his way to a science fair
“LOOK AT THAT FUCKING FLYING CAR" “Holy cow” feels
Best friend is a kid who is into arts and takes books with him to the army
“STEVE YOU’RE KEEPING YOUR SUPER HERO OUTFIT RIGHT??”
Smithsonian tells me Bucky was “an excellent athlete who also excelled in the classroom” – like, his grades were good enough Smithsonian thought “hey we should mention that”
If my math teacher wasn’t lying to me, you needed some pretty great math skills to be a good sniper in WW2, so there’s also that
People say “Oh Bucky was into science” but no, god, he was a full-blown nerd
Just hear me out;
– If this is true (GOD IT WILL HURT) that means that the past Loki will eventually have to go back to his present time after IW so all the events that have already happened come to pass.
– This means that Loki will know he has to die by Thanos’s hand.
– This means everything Loki’s done after New York was to SAVE the WORLD and the AVENGERS.
– This means Loki knows he has to remain a villain, that he can’t change, until the time presents itself.
– This means he has to continue to betray Thor on purpose, knowing it will hurt him.
– This means that when he is killed by Thanos all that work and effort, shows itself in fear and sadness, knowing he could never really show Thor what he was doing it for.
– This means after all this, Thor’s last words “You really are the worst brother.” Hurts a whole lot more then we can comprehend.
– This means that Loki’s last words “I promise you brother, the sun will shine on us again.” How he calls himself “Odinson.” Will haunt us forever.
I love how it’s “The Strange Case of Doctor Jekyll and MISTER Hyde” as in, yeah, they are basically two sides of the same person but only ONE has a doctorate
#unless your bitch ass second personality helped you write that thesis it is your fucking doctorate
Y’all crying and bitching about Seb shaving his beard like he is never ever going to grow it back but he grows out his hair like some Play-Doh Hair Salon bullshit.
By all means, talk and raise awareness about depression. But please mention:
•Not showering or brushing your teeth for two weeks
•Getting sick from a vitamin D deficiency because you haven’t been outside in a solid month
•Getting lightheaded when you stand up from bed because you’ve been laying down for days
•The body pains
•Shampoo not bubbling because this is the first time you washed your hair in three weeks
•Over stimulation
•Pity from a distance
•’Get over yourself, there’s people *in Africa starving, with cancer, homeless, living in poverty, dying, ect.’
•Massive weight gain
•Massive weight loss
•Both
•Your body literally changing how it looks and deposits fat based on frequent weight gain and loss
•Hair loss
•Zero self esteem
•Breaking out in acne so bad you can’t put your head on a pillow from pain
•Being too depressed to commit suicide
•Self imposed isolation
•Stomach cramps
•Nausea
•Vomiting
•’You’re so dramatic, it can’t be that bad’
If you don’t, I’m not saying you’re not raising awareness, but you definitely need to reevaluate your platform
One thing that nobody mentions is the over stimulation, which is a huge issue for me. I don’t like lots of noises, or physical contact, and lots of other things like that, it’s just too much for me
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